monster-조이's everyday life.

mood: impressed

haha, teddy is on my bed now. ((: okay now hes beside me!
ahhh. he taught me food cost just now, haha! prevert teacher o~
haha, hint hint!
well, we meet up in the evening and went to eat our sting ray! ((:
so hmmm, actually was suppose to meet up with daddy one, but he cant so we will be meeting on tues or wed.
and u know wad, teddy dressed up la lol. its like a prank! funny indeed
hmmms den after dinner, we went to buy beer! yummy, so long nvr drink with him alrdy la.
we just finish studying.. so now take a rest! will be studying menu planning and POC later.
den drink drink! ((:
hah! thats all ((: buaix!
ps: I LOVE OUR BLACK BOOK!

location: home

mood: cheerful

music: an jing

@@ went sakura for buffet just now with boyfriend and micheal.
ate alot~ and played some silly food mix game,gross.
teddy feed me vinegar. haha and i gave him wasabe.
im one evil girl ya oppa? LOL
hmmm i got my sim card ytd, but i cant use without a phone so sad.
miss oppa la.
and so many contacts all must retrieve back. haish.
okay skip this sad topic. ((:

oppa wants to go bangkok, so we must save up!
but im like not making an effort lor, come on! 
slap myself for being so ba bo.

school was quite okay just now, only that quite upset with the menu planning thing ytd, so screwed.
but nvm, forget it ((: i know oppa got his way!
so we're meeting on friday to bugis.
and movie too.
10 promises to my dog! 
if we have the time. bec celebrating xueli' birthday later at night. 
MISS MY ZOO FAMILY TO BITS OKAY!

hu T_T tml will be a long day in school, we're doing revision for poc, haha i feel like i've not been studying hard enuff these few weeks,
got to buck up.
or else.. haha wadeva!

feel so random now.
nothing to say alrdy o~
i shall upload some pictures of me and oppa la!
I LOVE WONTAE OPPA!
tata~

location: home

mood: discontent

music: endless rain

geez.
didnt update for a very long time again.
haha. was rather lazy la..
with school and such.

first of all. i got back my results alrdy.
was rather satsifying.
but was sad for him ); argh!
its my fault, i think he deserves better that wad he've gotten.
well. bygones (:
hmmm wads next?
the black book?
cool uhuh. 
i love it! 
AND WAD ELSE?
so many things happened and i couldnt put them on th list.
hmm me and babe okay alrdy.
((: 
both of us cold war but now i guess everything is gona be fine.
)): i lost my phone.
okay random. but very sad can?
goodness. 
psp not repair yet. now hp lost.
ba bo joey.
 skip skip.
 
oh yar
me and ted, sick for duno how many donkey weeks alrdy la can!
shitass.
flu and sore throat and wads next?
fever?
ba bo.
CAN WE GET WELL SOON?
haish.
really not in the mood recently.
moodswings.

and theres some privacy problem.
i need my room!
argh!
 okay end here. really feel so fucked up now.
COME BACK TO ME MY PHONE.
i curse the person who happens to get my phone, u damn evil, do u noe how much it matters to me?
those smses he send and those pictures and videos?
and contacts?
haish.
u effing hopeless bastard!
hate you like hell can.
disgusting!

xoxo to jagi.

OKAY, THAT PHONE CALL MAKE ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW.
KNOWING THAT THE PROBLEM IS NOT WITHIN US.
ALLRITGHT I MAY SOUND SELFISH HERE BUT I SERIOUSLY FEEL BETTER KNOWING WADS WRONG.
BLAHBLAH BUT STILL WONDERING IF EVERYTHING IS OKAY WITH HIM AND THE HOUSE THINGY.
WORRY~
SO YAR I SHD SPARE HIM SOMETIME TO SETTLE ALL THIS, JUST MEET HIM TML IS SCH AND BE THERE FOR HIM ((:
SHALL SAY MY GOOD NIGHT TO YOU HERE~
DARLING~ GOOD NIGHT,LOVED!
STUUUUUUPIIIIIIIID ^-^"

mood: sympathetic

 god!
tell me everthing is fine pls.
did i make u upset or angry?
am i thinking too much now?
everything little thing seems so heavy.
i dont wan this, why am i so worry?
bec i love you loads?
mmmmm.
problem?
about us?
goooooooooodness!
i cant stop wondering wads gonna happen tml.
why am i so scared and screwed up?
too sensitive perhaps.
T_T

~ all i wana do is find my way back into love~

location: home

mood: cold

music: secret OST

when was the last time i updated my lj? LOL
actually i wasnt busy at all,just that i really dont have to mood to post something but since im kinda bored now, so why not just spend sometime here!
geezs.
two weeks vacation just gone like this.
really wish it could be longer luh.
opps. but nevertheless, i enjoyed my vacation!
went to KL with him, 26th june 08!
( our special day )
♥연애  
love him to bits.
all the candles and hugs and kisses.
missing it now`

thats for Kl trip.
and mmm what did i do after the trip?
oh we went to eat bbq fish.
and stayovers with movies and beer?
someone tries to stop smoking but well.
nvm ((:
i know u need a time.
ANDAND 
hot pot,pizzas and movie again lol
i watch kungfu panda,dont you mess with zohan,happening,wanted,doomsday&hancock
plus some korean movies.
madness.

den wads next?
hmmm guess its bbq party ytd.
we did it at void deck and got scrammed by rc ppl.
((: lmao.
funny moment.
i hope everyone still enjoyed it despite the shit >.<!
den we played true or dare.
and i disappoint him but doing something which i wont mention here.
)): darling, im really sorry abt it and i wont ever do such things again.
forgive me okie?
(?)
mmmmmms.
oh yar i also coloured my hair at sherly mah.
blue-black((:
really dark colour but i hope its better, i think its better bec AT LEAST THE BLACK ROOTS ARE ALL GONE!
WOWOW.

was suppose to go IKEA to buy a bed with him
but he overslept la
so we'll go tml ((;

babe: cheer up, i think u still look great okay and now sch starts liao so cant meet u so often, but we can msn everday or sms or call.
now i starting to miss you le la
dunno why these few days i feel tat we like lacking something.
like replies are shorter and topics are lesser too.
is everything okay?
pls tell me )):
loved!

exams over. studied hard and guess effort will be paid off soon..
have been spending loads of time together with him, and time seems to pass much quickier when you're with someone u adore.
Both of us know the truth and whos keeping it? i guess its me.
i just need time, and i wont let you go.
even if we're not a good match in wadever shit, i still wont change my mind bec i know you are the one.
if u;re reading this, i want u to know that even if im hiding..someday you will know why.
i miss you.

location: home

mood: determined

music: this love

hello peeps.
its quite late now and i feel so sleepy after all those stupid pills.
(: it kinda helped alil but still, not enough.
wonder wads really happening to me.. could it be stomach ulcer? 
really scary.
i studied today. i covered eveything frm first chapter to fruits.
quite okay considering that im actually ill now.
i just chatted with him, we always have lots of shit to talk abt. and i kinda like that... but i hope he wont find me irritating.
hu.. it kinda hurt when it seems like im forcing him to say sweet stuffs ))): but but but ... nvm!
no rush into things. as long as we're happy now.. there's always better things to come yeah.

i finally told him th truth and i feel so much better. it totally sucks to the core for keeping a lie.
and i will never do it again.
its lucky that he still treats me well. im so afraid and i dont know why too. 
oh anw, he likes the tanks (: it looks cool on him. drools. hehe
 he ask me to go his house on friday (: and we shall study really hard as i promise to help him pull up his grade,
i will try my best. my happiness comes frm his (:
oh yar, green tea mask too!
can't wait!



hey *** , if u're reading this.
i wana tel you tat im really thankful for wad u've done.
and imy. <3!

mood: guilty

It's been almost 12 days teddy.
i've been keeping a lie from you since the day u invited me you ur house.
i totally have no courage to tell you the truth abt wad me and him did, esp when you're someone i really like.
you told me to be honest, i always will remember. And i hate the feeling of lying to you when u seem to trust me so much.I know i've broken your trust.
im so so effing afraid to lose you as a friend after telling you wad had happened. 
but now i fear nothing more than lying to you.
im sorry. i dont have any intentions for being close to you, i dont have any plan at all.
i just like you. im feeling so so guilty for hiding this to you when i know that u still stand up for me,
you told me past is past and it wont affect our friendship, but still, im too weak to confess.
untill now, i cant hold on anymoreeeee because you're too good to me. i have to apologise to you.
im sorry ted. even if its too late, i'll still seek for forgivness.
you believe in me more than i, myself do. and i shd just bang the wall for lying to you.
im sorry. i wont ever lie to you again, this feeling hurts. T_T
no matter wad, i hope you still care.
Rabbit's sorry to Teddy!

location: Home

mood: bouncy

music: Bleeding love

Okay first post after so so long.
everything's over. Olevels,new school,new environment,friends and some useless things.
Kinda wasted much time on some useless guys. not one but two? well hah, i dunno wad im doing either.
but now it seems like some bad stuffs are turing goood. At least there's someone who dotes me. (: sweet!
seriously, i dont really care abt wad others think. I cant please the world, i have my friends, my life and my goals.
annnnd most importantly i know wad im doing. i may be wrong, everyone makes mistakes, so do you.
heheheh, things like these wont affect me. even if it does, i just need some time...to digest. LOL
Now everyone's like having fun with their school or busy with exams.
actually i shd also be busy studying now but... hah! Dont worry, i will study. i will proof some bastards wrong.
alright, enough abt boring stuffs.
IM SO HAPPY! 
i finally bought my Burberry Brit sheer (: its $124. hahaha quite good price though. 

and the new color Adidas watch. and of cost my new lap top. (:
next stop : repair fallen extendsions. LOL
but its so far, im lazy to go there. hu... 
im gona pay my phone bills tml, sobx. its $104. i must control myself.




Thing to do for next week : bills, study, jogging before dinner, zoo family outing( CANT WAITTTTTTT) and more green tea! 

tata!

Two papers left,social studies;the most boring subject to study, AND CHEM/PHY MCQQQQQ!
wee~
the feeling is so good luh.
end of exams= holidays.
holidays=band,outings,overseas.
like seriously, i cant wait any longer.
well, i told leezhen and xueli abt this livejournal i own.
thou lz said xl will be upset but supprisingly she isnt (:
yep.
great!
okay!
main point!
I'VE ALRDY BOUGHT THE TICKET FOR 
周杰倫2008世界巡迴演唱會
Jay Chou World Tour 2008 (: 
another thing that i cant wait!
S$198, 18 jan 08
^^V
MY JAY CHOU!
GOSH.
oh yar another thing.
my girls are planning a trip down to Genting Highlands.
no adult.
so far only me weiling xueli and weifan know abt it.
we're going to ask our gang out.
two days genting two days KL.
most prob 29 dec - 1 jan.
i want it after port dickson trip so as to avoid missing an practices.
yupp, im still faithful to band luh.
no worries gee.
psst: i made a dumb mistake in physics paper.
): urber saddening!
thats it, got to go~
loved-

Do Fame And Fortune Bring Happiness?

In the streets of Bogota, Colombia, the hot sun beats down upon a woman. In her arms lies a boy drenched in a mixture of blood and tears. His cold body is riddled with bullet wounds- no doubt the result of being caught in a crossfire of a gunfight between the various drug cartels of Colombia. Such gangland wars are so common in this part of Colombia that they may be likened to seeing aeroplanes in the sky. The woman silently prays that her son would safely make his journey to heaven’s gates. The only thing that could bring her happiness at that precise moment is her son coming back to life and herself dying in his place- such is the unconditional love of a mother. Fame and fortune are furthest from her mind in the cushioning of her grief. In these tough streets of Colombia, happiness is just being able to survive one more day without being at the receiving end of a bullet in the head as in the case of other places as well which are ravaged by perennial threats such as natural disasters and war. In these places, fame and fortune seem like stuff straight out of a Tolkien fantasy.

Happiness is such an abstract concept that if you asked a thousand people for their definition of ‘happiness’ you may well get a thousand different answers. Its components are as diverse as the cultures of the world. Some people are satisfied with just staying alive whereas others will not rest until they get that luxurious house by the beach. Fame and fortune are merely players in the field called “Determinants of Happiness”. Fame is attained when a person becomes well-known or is often talked about. Fortune refers to the material well-being of people in the form of wealth, possessions and money. Today’s materialistic society tends to believe that those two things are the only things that could ever provide happiness but do they even bring about true happiness in the first place? This we shall discover after we examine fame and fortune individually.

The very mention of the word ‘fame’ leads us to associate it with such luminaries like movie stars River Phoenix, Tom Cruise, Marian Dietrich, Lauren Bacall, Andy Lau, Humphrey Bogart, sports stars such as Diego Maradona, Ronaldo, Michael Jordan and Yao Ming and even famous political leaders such as Deng Xiaoping, Winston Churchill and Adolf Hitler. These people are famous (or infamous) for achievements in their respective fields. Yet to what extent did their fame bring them happiness? Maradona and River Phoenix were victims of their own fame. They took drugs and eventually ruined their careers and in River’s case ended his life- all this due to their “overexposure” to the public in their younger days leaving them psychologically unstable in their later years. The very same people who had heaped praise upon them earlier had now turned their backs on them and criticized them for every mistake they made. With such sorrow that fame brings, who would even dare to associate it with happiness? Nonetheless, there are people who manage fame very well and are all the better for it. They take fame with a pinch of salt and are now seemingly happy people. People such as Tom Hanks and Andy Lau are just some names on this list. However, such people never seem to attribute happiness to the fame they attained but instead list the often clichéd ‘simpler things in life’ as the things that make them happy. So where then does fame play a part in contributing to happiness?

With fame also comes the need for inconspicuousness in public. Many stars have lamented the fact that such a price is too huge to pay for fame. They are unable to to go to their favourite restaurants, funfairs or newspaper stands for fear of being recognized. They have to ask people to either buy food for them or deliver food to their homes. In a way, their freedom is restricted due to public scrutiny. Surely we do not want to be prisoners to our own fame- the very same fame we reaped with sweat and blood? But that is exactly what will happen to us when we become famous. It will take us twice the time to do our shopping in the supermarket as every other customer is a potential autograph hound. This is not yet taking into consideration stalkers who might follow you, tap into your phonelines- in short, invading your privacy. Every corner, every turn is met with suspicion and anxiety because who knows, one day, a crazed fan might just cut you up and cook you in curry to forever be part of him/herself. What a life a celebrity must endure; no doubt a glamorous one but a happy one?  I doubt so, unless you enjoy being cooked in curry.

The television has been our window to the private lives of many of the richest people in the world, such as Bill Gates, Sultan Hassanal Bolkiah and Warren Buffett just to name a few. If my memory serves me right, none of them looked to happy about being interviewed with serious faces hidden beneath painfully constructed smiles. In fact some of them were glancing around suspiciously around them. Little wonder that with so many millions of dollars bulging out from their pockets, they might even suspect the cameraman of being a potential kidnapper or robber who could take their possessions away from them in the blink of an eye. If they are even ‘luckier’ they may just win a one-way trip to the netherworld while being robbed. Thus a lot of light is shed upon the often heard saying that “the more you have, the more you worry”. As you worry, not even the funniest clowns you pay or the most expensive food in the world can make you happy.

With all the points I mentioned earlier, it does seem that instead of bringing happiness, fame and fortune bring a lot of grief and sorrow. So why are millions of people around the world so convinced that fame and fortune can bring happiness? This, I believe, is merely due to the illusion that fame and fortune bring happiness. However, in actual fact, I think that the pursuit of fame and fortune may be the answer behind this mystery. This is because in the pursuit of fame and fortune, our minds become preoccupied with the hope of a better life leading us to think that fame and fortune are the things that will make us happy.  It is always a comforting feeling just knowing that you still have hope to achieve something in this world. The more unrealistic the dream, the better it is for us as then we could have an aim that could keep us preoccupied for life. Thus it can be seen that fame and fortune by themselves may not bring happiness after all.

Fame and fortune are seen as things that cannot bring happiness because they are temporary in nature- as they say “You can’t take it with you” However, the nature of some people is such that their faces will light up at the sight of gold (and this not because of the gleaming qualities of the metal either) Some tribes which have never even heard of either fame or fortune, such as the Yali tribe in Irian Jaya, live in perfect harmony and absolute bliss. The leaders of such tribes believe that if such concepts were introduced within the tribe, then jealousy and strife will divide their people and their happiness- lost. The Norwegian heavy metal band, “Hammerfall” offers useful advice in the chorus of its song, “Glory to the Brave”- “Nothing on Earth is forever but none of your deeds are in vain”. If we could use our fame and fortune to make a difference to contribute to the various charities that are struggling to stay afloat, then a sort of self-satisfaction creeps into us- something we usually call “happiness”. This type of happiness lasts forever as it is a happiness that is shared.

2 more days to English and Maths paper 1. 
it's definitely hell for me. 3 hours of English paper 
then follow by a short break and it's the start of Maths paper alrdy. 
i'll urely be dead tired after the English paper.. 
theres not doubt for it.
I really wana pass my Maths but it seems like i've not been practising hard enough for it.
not forgeting that i've also art preparatory to be completed for the paper 2 on Tuesday.
nothing is drawn yet.
got to really get my ass off the chair and start to do someting for it.
NO TIME LEFT.
-get it!
speaking of time, i just remember abt my geog paper.
it was such a close shave man. i was left only for 15mins to do the 12marks question on toursim.
lucky me, at least got some answers writen.
a careless mistake was done for the calculation for distance.
but it's only 1 mark so still alright, not so much fear than the chem paper
eassy question.
mistaken oxidation for addition.
god, hope marker will only deduct marks for that particular question instead of marking the whole question wrong.
sigh.

on a happier note, (:
we'll be collecting our contact lens after physics paper.
it cost me $380, a big hole for my pocket then, but still, no regrets.
and and and also.
will be going for hair do on the 7th nov.
haven even decided on what colour i want but it's okay,
got ample time left after exams.
48 hours to decide (:
i think it will cost me around $100.
dont worry~!
someone alrdy offering me a job, will quickly earn back the money.
and hopefully still have some left to buy either psp or ipod.
OR that paul smith bag (:
okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
STUDIES FIRST.
one more week to go!
gambatte joey!
(:
study hard and no regrets.
- im quite interested to find out more abt MDIS.
yeah. thats all folks.
got to go stuck my eyes on some plain papers and draw some shit on them yknow what im talking about.
bye!